DAY 557

today

December has been a hectic month. I haven´t been around as much as I would have liked. Indeed, I wanted to explore Christmas season with my camera or have time to write about my feelings related to my inner work along this time of the year but I have had no time to socialize or stay connected. Finally, I am learning to go with the flow, so no regrets. Thanks to this, a quite complicated year has brought me peace and joy and a deep sense of belonging.

Have a wonderful day, dear friends and thanks so much for your love and support, my journey wouldn´t be so enriching, interesting and rewarding without you all. Your presence in my life has been a blessing.

This evening is also my birthday I will be 50 years old and I am determined to celebrate that I am right here, right now.

Merry, merry Christmas!!

Much Love,

Z.

DAY 540

the art of being here

While I was seeing that boy dancing with the water like if nobody could see him, so focused on his own fun, unaware of the world around him, I discovered myself admiring his ability to surrender to the immediacy of his own wishes, to repond to life spontaneously.

 After a short reflection I realized that I am not naive enough to be so happily carefree: wounds, experiences, disappointments, prejudices and fears make it impossible. But I also realized that I wouldn´t like to exchange his life for mine, I wouldn´t like to live it all over again to become an adult, especially when now I can be back to joy and the sense of full belonging to the moment I am living while keeping what I have learned. Especially when right now I feel that I have started to live consciously, when I am finally figuring out what life is about.

  No, I wouldn´t like to be a child again, especially when now I can have that carelessness attitude without the sense of strangeness. Especially when now I can live without needing to reach certain goals or places, when now I can live like if I were dancing, enjoying every step, lost in the pleasure of the movement.

I have come finally to the conclusion that this journey itself is the point, that I don´t have to fulfill anything determined in advance, just to go gracefully with the immediate moment and its gifts... so why should I want to leave this sweet stage of my existence where I have the best of being a child and the best of having lived half a life? Why, if now I can bow down to my destiny with my mind well-balanced and my heart open?...


When the boy was about to complete his fourth lap to the fountain, I got up, and I followed my path and I could feel that my soul was making a little dance, celebrating the acknowledgement of this simple truth.