DAY 283

celebrating real me

My contribution to photo-heart connection this month is related to me and my personal journey in a more deeply way than my previous contributions

A few weeks ago I wanted to take some photos of my feet because it was the weekly theme of a group I joined in flickr. For one reason or another, mainly because this is the way my brain works, I started to think about how feet usually go unnoticed, even when they are so very important and  about my relationship with them and the role they play in my current life, I have discovered that going for a walk is such a therapeutic thing!...

Well, the thing is that I started to play and to take some photos and I published a few of them with my musings. This one, even when it was edited, kept unpublished (I am not sure why) and looking through my files a couple of days ago, I realized this had to be my photo-heart connection of this month because it contains a sort of affirmation that arouses strong emotions in me

I´ve never found myself beautiful. Even when deep inside me  I know I am a good looking woman, without being a conventional beauty and people finds me elegant or attractive, I always managed to find a tiny fault with my body or my face and felt unhappy with them. I was not worried by social speeches about beauty or determined to fit the social stereotypes, I had read enough to understand that this was only market´s trends -or at least this was not the main problem- it was something deeper

When I started this journey, this became secondary, I had so many things to analyze and change inside me. But along the way I worked on areas that started to thrown light upon this issue. I found out the great importance of honoring my body, of treating it well, and realized that this journey was about embracing the whole of me

While I was learning how to do this I was thinking in terms of healing, well-being and conscious, but later on this process has shown itself to be a process that alludes to beauty, a process which is about finding beauty not only around me, but in me, too. This beauty can be  abstract, ethereal beauty, inner beauty,  a beauty which is related to harmony and peace and also real, tangible and even sensual beauty which is much more related to the physical senses

So now I am willing to consider my life and myself to be beautiful in the widest sense of the word, and this include physical beauty

In a sense, this has amazed me. I had imagined this process would lead me to overcome my insecurities about my appearance because I would not be concerned by my body anymore, because I could be beyond the purely physical aspects of my life. I hadn´t imagined this could happen because I would be appreciating, respecting and loving my body. I hadn´t imagined I could be looking at it and see a prodigious creation but also tons of charm

But I am doing this and even more, I am celebrating, improving and enjoying what I have and let me tell you something: I feel more confident and powerful than ever before