DAY 564

in {and out} Week 4: Winter selfie

The world outside is always calling us and it seems that we have never enough of it. There is always new events that are about to happen, new places to go, new trends to follow, new people that are worth meeting…

Our curious brain -which is often overly stimulated thanks to market strategies- feels inevitably attracted to it. Our ego that wants always to be in charge finds there the best place to make an impact and stands out. Even our sweet heart, always adventurous, always in the search of love, throws itself into it, yearning for a kindred spirit.

Only the soul remains impassible, reserved… aloof. Only the soul can observe without running after what it offers. Only the soul can analyze and stay balanced. Only the soul cannot be controlled by arrogance, need of approval, resistance and fears. Only the soul knows how to bow down, how to embrace and stay detached, how to live passionately while being serene, quiet.

When we start a process aimed at connecting with our true self, we channel our efforts through what is outside, not from the soul. It may sound paradoxical, but we can only do it this way because we need guidance and feel encouraged by others experiences. However, we must be cautious. As soon we start that journey the ego feels that its power is being questioned and begins a sort of boycott. It can be very evident, but it can also be subtle and the brain and the heart will be involved. Emotions and reasoning will compete or collaborate, sometimes in order to discredit all the process and sometimes to distort its nature making it something that is related to success. As a result, in a given moment, we become avaricious and we lose connection.

Either if we feel disappointed or maybe mesmerized by our own abilities, we are lost in the ego dirty tricks. This can make all our work a bit tedious or irrelevant or frivolous or in short, useless. However, if we don’t give up, finally we´ll realize that there is a tiny part of us that keeps the calm amidst our ups and downs. A tiny part of us that is patient and precise and not easily manipulable and wants to live that experience of being with ourselves in a real way.

I´ve been trying to empower that tiny part of me which doesn´t see all this like an external entertainment and I have learnt that it demands to live in seclusion. It demands silences and pauses and slowness.

This is not the pace of the external world, no matter what its slogans say, that’s why I frequently need to shelter in home… alone with my soul.


This entry is part of a project I am developing with my friend Montse Gallardo. We´ll share a photo every week during 2015. Her photos will be always taken outside and my photos will be indoor shots only. We have created a Facebook page: In and Out. 52 weeks where you can see all the photos of the project.