DAY 189

"What in your life is calling you,
When all the noise is silenced,
The meetings adjourned...
The lists laid aside,
And the Wild Iris blooms
By itself
In the dark forest...
What still pulls on your soul?"

Rumi

DAY 188

given blessings: creativity II

Everyday creativity is based on the assumption that we are all creative. It's not synonyms with artistic talent or professional skills, indeed is part of our true nature as we need to be creative and innovate in order to survive. So we can use this gift when we need to heal our lives by opening ourselves up to our inner voice

As I said we´re all randomly creative (this is part of our adaptability) and also we can develop this proces intuitively, but if we want to do it more consciously, whe should taking into account the following issues:

 Choosing a medium. Even we are not talking about training as an artist, but about using our innate ability to create  with the aim of knowing ourselves better and  becoming clear about what´s going on our lives, we must see ourselves as creator. If we have made art before, this won´t be difficult, but if not, we should explore our memories and feelings

 Having what you need to start your practice. Time, a space where you can work, a storage place, and materials are basic. You won´t need full-time dedication,  a big studio or lots of expensive stuff, only the essential and this will depend on the medium selected. Quite often, a few hours per month, just a simple table, a good lamp if we are planning work at night, and a box where to store our materials are enough

Orienting ourselves to this new task. We all need inspiration and support, so if we are planning to start to create as part of our inner work, both things will be fundamental. Looking for books, web sites, on-line communities, taking a class, or sharing our interest with friends could be helpful

Taking the first step from a place of trust, acceptance and non criticism. You are looking for inner peace, not for perfection. We have to go with the flow of our creativity, and let the process develops by itself. Instead of trying to control it or starting to analyze what we are creating, we should appreciate our performance in terms of clarity and wellbeing and mainly, witness its messages of change and transformation

DAY 187

given blessings: creativity

I have talked about the idea of creativity as a healing practice before. Indeed, creating have been a powerful healing tool along my journey. According to my own experience regarding this issue,  the creative process works in a double direction. 

When we start to heal, we change our vision, trough the change of our inner patterns. But, we can also redefine our inward scenery, changing the way we look at the world

In both cases, creativity can play a basic role. First, helping us to improve self-knowledge, to go deeper into ourselves and to illustrate our finds. Second, helping us to train our gaze in order to make it much clearer and allowing us to give expression to a more sensible and healthy perspective that can be use as a "guide" or a way to feel inspired

When I first started to use creativity during my healing process, I thought I could be useful as a breakout of a complex work, but soon I understood that it could be also a powerful way to clear my head and my emotions

I have discovered that creating can have incredible benefits. No matter if I write down my journals, make collages, update my blog, take photographs, alter or restore furniture or develop a crafty task... I always end up not only revitalized, but also much more aware of what happening around me and inside me. It increases my relaxation, but mainly my discernment

Along the years I have found out some ways to make this process even better, so now I have a good foundation from which to begin creating with a "healing aim" in mind. And even when a more informal approach is quite useful, this one which is more organized, is not complicated to learn or to carry on, either

DAY 186

grace

When life starts to be too serious, your mood starts to be too strict and you´re not able to allow deviation or relaxation

When your behave starts to be extremely severe and you can´t help following rules and belief exactly and even fanatically, and you are discovering yourself being excessively concerned with irrelevant things and losing your flexibility

When you feel that you won´t be able to bend without breaking, and you´re not able to change readily to meet new circumstances and you don´t permit yourself to change to become better suited to your environment

When persons around you start to have the feeling that they are restricted due to your attitude and they believe that sharing their time with you somehow deprive them of their freedom or joy

When you start to understand that you won´t stand this sense of false transcendence, the need of control and the anxiety it causes... it´s time to listen to that tiny inner voice that whisper softly, yet clearly: you are born to claim serenity, to practice weightlessness, to live with nimbleness and charm and to go with the flow graciously

DAY 185

my camera and me (a love story)

When I look around through the lens of my camera, I find things that usually go unnoticed, things that I am not able to perceive sometimes because my everyday life is too hectic, so I can´t take time to notice subtle details, and often, because my mind is not only busy, but also filled with preconceptions about what is important and what is not.

So, it allows me to:

find beauty in the ordinary things

realize the magnificence of life itself without additives or adornments

marvel at the unexpected appearance of things

become immerse in unknown places of my inner scenery

become aware of my uniqueness

claim my feelings

develop reverence

In short, it helps me to stay in touch with the present moment, to keep things in perspective and also, to represent them in a way that is true to my inner self

Somehow, my camera mends my vision and makes it wider and due to this reason, it complements my inner work. I had started a healing process which included changing the way I look to world and life before I started to take photos, but I have discovered that this is an awesome way to go into it in deep and reinforcing its results. So now photography is part of my daily practice, indeed is a sort of meditation

And as any other form of meditation, it helps me to look at things carefully and also, to focus my mind for self-consciousness purposes; it enhances my energy, develops my intuition and provides a sense of peace and joy. How couldn´t I love my camera?...

I am starting a 52 weeks project with a flickr group. This means I will taking a weekly photo with them, sharing a common theme. This my contribution to the first week

DAY 184

"The whole existence is a temple...
the trees are continuously in worship, the clouds are in prayer and the mountains are in meditation"

Osho

DAY 183

recyclability


I am responsible every course for a group of assigned students who are developing what we call external practices. This means they are testing their abilities in a real context. This is one of the most rewarding tasks that I must deal with along the academic year: generally speaking they are very motivated students and the role I have to play allows me to transcend specific knowledge and working from a more integrative perspective

Along the years I´ve been focusing more and more on translating my own experiences to a comprehensive language in order to give useful guidelines that can help them to make the most of their practices. The experiences I have in mind when I meet them are of course, professional experiences but also, life experiences and lately, things related to my personal journey

So I tell them things similar to those which I write here about expectations, acceptance, mindfulness and mainly about the importance of self-knowledge and self-consciousness when they need to make decisions or have to solve conflicts

I also use this phrase quite often: there are not "junk events", nor useless experiences. I want them to understand that nothing is trivial when we are working and also, that everything that happens to us is helping us to grow up and evolve, even those that we discarded because seem to be little relevant or harmful

That phrase has started to be a sort of motto when I work with these students, because it encapsulates a basic belief that underlies a important part of my teachings. To my great surprise, I have discovered that most of them understand and like the idea and I have realized that those who take it into account and have a mood accordingly, usually have better academic results

Coincidence? I don´t think so

DAY 182

buddhahood

"As the bee collects nectar and departs without injuring the flower, or its color or fragrance, so let the sage dwell on earth"

DAY 181

my path is paved with flowers


This are strange times: the financial scenario is more chaotic every passing day, many people is losing a basic stability that we were giving for granted only a couple of years ago. The situation of the developed countries are changing too fast and not always in a better direction and the state of welfare starts to be questioned... not to talk about the developing countries: most of them are going through complex times of intense difficulty or danger, where revolutions, wars and of course, famine are ravaging societies. This is happening in a moment when the most impoverished can´t count on the richer ones, as the international aid is suffering serious reductions too 

The scene is distressing and the outlook -from a political point of view- is not promising at all. Old paradigms seem to be tottering and I am not clear what is coming but what I know for sure is we´re going to something new that probably will change the way we live and the way we look at the world. As far as I can see, this is not a temporary crisis, is something that is shaking the roots of our system

I am part of a generation that has to deal and manage this situation. As a person with a very precise and high training, specializing in planning, education and development, maybe I should outline some theories heavily significant, but to be honest, I am not sure that I could give an answer taking this knowledge as starting point

In this times where reality is changing madly, I truly believe that the best thing we can do is empowering our inner resources.

In my case, I am using the same strategy I´ve been using to heal my life:

I try to focus on the things which are on my power, and develop a mindful attitude

I try to develop my creativity and my strategic thinking

I try to empower others and myself too; I try to practice what I preach: kindness, compassion and gratitude and improve my strength, patience and decision making

I try to make little things with much attention and to walk gently

I try to accept what it is and to be constructive and proactive, not passive or reactive

I try to look for new opportunities, be helpful and keep a positive mind

And, last but not least, I try to appreciate little gifts and discover miracles everywhere

Of course, I know this can become more and more difficult as the crisis become harder, and more and more areas of my life start to be affected... but I rely on my resilience

As long as I can find little treasures along my way when I bend my head, I know I will survive

DAY 180

the journey


"One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do
determined to save
the only life you could save."

Mary Oliver

DAY 179

musing on impermanence

DAY 178

things that make spring so delightful


The sense of resurgence that pervade every new day

The silky light which comes softly into the house

The emerging life that keeps on chasing death no matter what happens around

The scented air which brings back memories of lost times

The continuous sound produced by birds, insects and the blooming buds

The changeable weather that makes days much more interesting

The gentle breeze which challenges us to go outside

The white fluffy clouds that create fleeting shadows

The ephemeral flowering that last only a brief time   

The subtle yet intricate design of every new flower which opens its petals to enjoy sun rays

The new shades of colors which move beauty to another level

...The pure feeling of awakening

DAY 177

"We must never forget
that the world is, in the first place, a subjective phenomenon.
The impressions we receive from these accidental happenings are also our own doing. It is not true that the impressions are forced on us unconditionally; our predisposition conditions the impression" 

Carl Jung

DAY 176

persistence of beauty


Colors give its splendor to spring, but I have learnt through my life when something is missed, a sort of replacement or compensation occurs. So when I started to edit this photo in black and white, suddenly I started to become more aware of the subtle lines and forms, the delicate textures and veins, the direction of light. Things that before went unnoticed, became more relevant and the absence of color, which, to be honest, I didn´t like before, started to be secondary and even an advantage

And I wondered how many times along a life this can happen without being appreciated, or even rejected. I started a mental list about my own experiences, and I discovered a great evolution. As far as I can see, changing my mind about my need of control, has made a great difference

Of course, it hasn´t been always as easy as when I edited this photo and it has entailed some great challenges but mainly, tiny tests. In fact, simple situations, give us the real dimension of our own aperture:  when we are not able to accept any simple change, or it makes us suffer too much, it´s time to think about our attachment to rules, values, ideas, preconceptions or prejudices that are not making us happier, on the contrary, are making us feel upset and tired of our existence

It´s all about the way we expect reality to be and the attitude we choose to develop when something disappoints our expectations. We can choose to embrace or get annoyed, to accept or start to grumble about it, to repudiate our experiences or welcome them... in short, we can choose to disown our life or try to live it as best as possible

This won´t make all our experiences grateful, but will make our life bearable and probably, much more interesting,  joyful and beautiful

DAY 175

highly sensitive

 I have prayed for being a bit more absentminded most of my life. I´ve always had the sense that I have the ability to see , perceive and remember too much and don´t forget easily... which causes me the feeling that I am too sensitive to my environment and internal states

The answer to my prayers came in an unexpected form. My journey hasn´t led me to be less perceptive, but to learn to focus my energy in the right direction, so I can be receptive without being so susceptible, vulnerable and prone to distortion

Now I know that my ability to be responsive to subtle clues is indeed a gift even when my experiences and my own story, that have affected my personality in major ways, have turned it into something apparently problematic during some stages of my life. Once I understood that fact, I started to deal with my strong feelings (softening the negative emotions and empowering the positive ones) and to see myself in a more appreciative way. This has allowed me to realize that I can use this ability to achieve a higher degree of excellence in my work and personal life

In fact, it makes me facile to evaluate things like mood of others or changes in my environment and act accordingly and, as I can be more accurate in my perceptions and I am not so easily affected by biases caused by a stereotyped way of thinking, I can also act strategically without problems

So finally, I have found the positive side of the deep processing of what´s going on: intuition, efficiency, creativeness and conscientiousness

note: If you think you can be a highly sensitive person, this link could help you

DAY 174

Things I know for sure

Life is cyclical:  nothing lasts for ever, all things (good or bad) will pass and they will give way to new ones

This existence demands leaps of faith

When I refuse to learn a lesson, it will come back once and again

I don´t need to wait for the perfect moment, every moment is perfect its own way

I am wiser than I realize

If I don´t know what to do, it´s time to ask for guidance

Accepting help makes me stronger

Creativity heals

Being grateful is the best attitude to deal with life. Indeed, attitude is everything

Spirituality is not incompatible with everyday life, on the contrary, we become more and more spiritual when we learn to see the Spirit everywhere, even inside us

Little things help to go through life

If I strive to use adjectives to describe my experiences, I loose the opportunity to understand their true nature and meaning

Expectations and attachment don´t lead me to a good place

I create my own life, not only because intentions are important but also because I have the power to decide how I look at life. Positive thoughts do really make a difference

Everything is easier when I simply go with the flow, but this is the hardest thing for me to do. However, little by little I am learning to do it

Uniqueness is good, I don´t have to look for homogeneity in order to be beautiful, accepted or even, desirable

Silence feeds my soul

When I stay true to myself, my life unfolds beautifully

A compassionate mood helps to make the world a better place to live in

Every soul is walking an unique path and fighting the battles which needs in order to learn, grow and evolve,

When I decrease my judgments and increase my kindness, I contribute to raise the spiritual energy of this planet

There is a underlying purpose in all lives, including mine. A master plan which could lead to a better, awakened, version of ourselves

DAY 173

70%


There are many ways of living inside a rewarding relationship with the divine... even one which is related to sensations and senses. However, many persons think that this mundane and sensorial experiences move us away from this relationship and make us less spiritual

Of course, when we start a spiritual journey, we start to heal our life and this, obviously, have effects on the way we eat. This can have an ethic dimension and depends on values or beliefs and also a pragmatic one which is linked to the nature of the food itself and mainly to the consequences of its use.

So some meals, foods and savors are not considered acceptable in some circles. The limits of this particular scale are extremely changeable and the reason why some foods can be part of it are sometimes not clear and, I am afraid, it is due to some short-lived crazes and market needs

Chocolate represent this tendency. It is considered to be little healthy due to its own composition and highly related to a low mood and this make us to be alert to dependency and dysfunctions of our behavior. But,of course, it comes out of the list from time to time…

Even when I truly believe that spirituality and wellness come together, I don´t think we should link a more conscious way of living to the banning of some foods. To tell you the truth, I don´t think conscience and prohibitions fit well but I truly believe in balance. As far I can see, we should choose our foods according to our own experiences, knowledge, convictions and needs but not according to random choices or personal whims of other people

This could involve changes and the twist of some old habits; use of traditional ingredients and recipes in a new way; but also, learning,  the search for new information about  more beneficial varieties of our favorite food. That´s entirely up to us, but if we embed conscious intention and love into food and make decisions about our diet from this perspective we can´t get it wrong

DAY 172

paying attention


"The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference."

Elie Wiesel

DAY 171

practicing patience II

As far as I am concerned, patience has to do with our ability to focus on life as it is and, therefore, is also about staying present and giving things mindful attention. These are things that help me to cultivate it:

I make “unproductive” activities, in particular I spend time in nature and I observe how nature takes its time to complete its own cycles

I am learning to slow down, this is making easier to appreciate and honor the present moment… the moment where life occurs

I devote myself to creative projects (like this blog), and I let them grow without rushing them. I enjoy watching how they evolve, the process, instead of being eager to finish them

I am learning to give other persons (either my students, my husband, or my relatives and friends) space to unfold creatively, following their thoughts and feelings and making things their way.

I try not to criticize or reprimand them sharply when they are wrong or simply, are doing things in a different way than me. This is quite difficult as I am prone to rebuke, but I say to myself, this is not the way I would do this, so what?

I live with two cats. Pets are great patience trainers (like children), not only because they put our tolerance to the test, but because they show us how to be truly unresentful and benevolent

I take photographs, and lately I am thinking about deliberate compositions which demands certain light and I don´t move forward too fast

Last, but not least, when I am doing any of these things and I notice that I am becoming impatience, I ask to myself: what´s the hurry? and remember that patience allows me to seize the present moment

DAY 170

practicing patience


Even when I am a persevering person, I steadfast in my aims and I don´t get frustrated easily, which could suggest that I am patient, the true is that patience have two sides, one related to our ability to keep on going no matter the circumstances and other one, which is much more related to the acceptance of life as it is

I don´t know if every person who is good at the first one, is not so good at the second one (and vice versa), or this is only my case, but I´ve been dealing most of my life with my resistance to accept when perseverance haven´t given me any problem at all

Indeed, I´ve had to work hard to learn to tolerate everyday setbacks, which make arise impatience, and the annoyance which often come with it, and prevent me from experiencing a true sense of serenity

This work has allowed me to act more mindfully and mainly, to improve my relationships with other persons and with myself. This happens because when anger is turned off, the demanding attitude turns out tempered, and a wiser and compassionate side of me is enabled to come to light

As usual, this has demanded a regular practice:

Of course, the proverbial advices about this issue, consisting of counting to ten or going to another place, usually work well. When we are impatient is important to step back from ire and hostility, and this is a good way to do it, because we dissociate our impulse from our actions

But it is much better to train ourselves to become less impatient. If we do such thing, we will observe changes in our behavior and as time goes by, the decrease of the triggering circumstances for anger. Therefore, we have to start to do things that call for our patience and keep on trying, till we get better, this is, till we be able to be present while we are doing (if not, it´s a false patience) . It can sound simple or paradoxical, but indeed is a good way to own and transform our difficulties

In my case they are things that help me to deal with my tendency to want life to be different right now and don´t let it develop following its own pace

DAY 169

"Who looks outside, dreams.
Who looks inside, awakens."
Carl Jung


Somehow, this quote  has ruled past years of my life

As I am an introvert person, I´ve been highly connected to my inner world since I was a young girl, but it hasn´t been till these recent years that I have learned to make a positive use of this attribute

When I started to be more and more interested in the spiritual world, I discovered that I was good at reasoning, at the process of identifying my emotions and even at intuition, but I wasn´t so good at acknowledgement. Indeed, I wasn´t able to fully accept what my mind, my sentiments and mainly my soul were telling me. So I had to cultivate a more trusting attitude

Indeed, I have learned to use thoughts, emotions and insights in the correct proportions and also, to put in a steady position the force of my mind, which can start to use a illogical logic so easily, and need to be placated; the impact of my emotions which can be overwhelming and need to be well managed and the power of my soul which can be paradoxical, but need to be reinforced

Nowadays, I understand that the distribution of the weight of this three elements in order to ensure stability, must be not only different than it was before, but also dynamic and changeable depending on circumstances. And I admit that in this, so to speak, psycho-spiritual dance, my eternal and beautiful soul must be the leader

Of course this hasn´t happened from one day to the next. I have made a constant work (indeed it still is a work in progress) along the latest years consisting of meditating, learning to deal with my own energy, starting new practices, healing the past, focusing on the present, giving up expectations and so on...

This work  itself is very interesting and rewarding. Apart from this, it demands and produces (I am sure this sounds strange but this is my experience) complete confidence. This faith is the most amazing gift that I have ever received

I still don´t know where my life will go, but now I trust it completely

DAY 168

musing on the present

DAY 167

Sunday morning... glorious morning


"We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give"
Winston Churchill 

here: J. and the baby kitty working/playing and enjoying their time together after the breakfast
This scene made my day

DAY 166

buddhahood


"Better than a meaningless story of a thousand words is a single word of deep meaning which, when heard, produces peace"

DAY 165

farewell


Back home, the flowers of my orchid are falling, while orchids at my mom´s house are flowering

This has made me reflect on all the things we give for granted and on all our preconceived ideas about time, life, cycles and normality...

We need to think that things always occur according certain laws because we can´t stand the uncertainty. But life is a lovely contradiction where exceptions, unexpected events and even miracles are usual and future is unpredictable

If we just could believe that life can surprise us favorably... maybe we could let go some of our conditionings

If we just could remember that nothing is ensured... maybe we could make the most of every single minute

DAY164

these priceless instants 

When I am at my mom´s house I tend to collect tiny, precious, memories of the moments we share. I´ve always done that because when I was born my mother was 40 years old, and since I was a little girl I´ve had the feeling that time was short...

In fact, the reason why I started to do so was mainly fear (or my need to avert it) and I know that it has triggered  some undesirable reactions along the years. However, healing doesn´t mean to transform dramatically all your acts and habits, but your responses, this is, the reasons why you do things

So, for some time now,  I am undergoing a marked change, which includes acceptance, and entails the preservation of memories from a completely different approach: I focus on gratitude for my experiences and not on the suffering due to what I am going to lose. In other words, I try to live, enjoy and treasure the time I have and not to stop it. So in a sense, I am using those experiences to reinforce  my love for the present and not my concern for the future (or my regret for the past)

Therefore, this old habit has taken a new meaning. Of course, this involves a practice that I must do consciously and is  not always easy... but anyway, it´s giving me deep moments of bliss

DAY 163

sugar sighs

My mother really has a sweet tooth and she is also, a chocolate lover

I don´t like sweets so much and indeed, I am not a sugar advocate -although I love chocolate too-, but when I visit her I always carry sweet treats with me because she appreciates (and enjoy) them very much

I could try to change her habits, and try to introduce her into new ones, but generally speaking her meals are healthy and at this stage of her life, I find that is more important her pleasure than my ideas or convictions.

I don´t want to spend this time we are sharing talking about what she is doing right or wrong, except if it´s essential, because this causes an unnecessary anxiety and undermines her dignity. I truly believe that now I have to try to respect her more than ever and try not to question her values, tastes and point of views

Quite often we are prone to overdramatize problems of old people. We try to correct them and make them living just as we want, just because they are dependent on us, and this is not good at all

I can see this every time a health counselor comes to my mom´s house (as happened this week): they never talk about her sentiments or try to figure out her circumstances. They just give her generic orders and instructions which make feel her misunderstanding and confused. Most of them are, moreover, useless, because have nothing to do with my mother´s experiences, her way of life or capacities

This always makes me feel frustrated (even when I uderstand that they are well-intentioned) and a bit angry... and I argue with them about what my mother´s needs, often in vain

But this time, I took it easy and follow a different strategy because I didn´t want my mother to feel hopeless: I let them recit their well learned speech, I asked for fundamental information and when they left, I shared this tiny meringues, which are known as "sighs",  with my mother. We talked about the advices of the counselors and we laughed a bit I don´t know exactly why...

Maybe compassion is just this: the capacity to understand and share feelings and to laugh (or cry) together

DAY 162

"Generosity is circle that returns unto itself.
The more we give, the more we have. And in that state of generosity, willing spiritual sharing, we ourselves are healed. For when are generous, we can see the vast abundance that is also there for us. This is true generosity because no one is excluded. We are drawn together, united by it. Through it we have a taste of union. It grants us ease and gives us the grace of knowing that life is more than an endless struggle. Indeed it is gracious, generous, and kind.

Daphne Rose Kingma

here: At my mother´s house, orchids are flowering, thanks to my brother´s cares and the kind attention of my mom. She is not strong enough to watering them, but everytime she passes by their side, she stops and look at them. I think this thoughtful gaze is acting as fertilizer...

DAY 161

giving can be fun


I used to take advantage of this time of the year to rest, stay at home and keep updated with my personal tasks but till last year I am spending part of my Easter´s holidays at my mom´s house

Along the years, I  have learnt a lot about setting boundaries. It can sounds paradoxical, but I have the feeling that this learning is helping me now when I have to hand over my time and give up some of my needs (I love so much having an entire week without a precise timetable!)

I am observing that people around me who -according to my point of view- haven´t got well settled boundaries, usually have problems when the time to give comes. I think that it can happen because when we let other have our time systematically, we are prone to try to save some time for us and quite often, we do this in the wrong occasion or with the weaker person or the less demanding which is totally unfair

But as I am much more balanced than in the past, I am not having big problems on this matter. I feel that this period of my life is showing me the reverse of my learning about boundaries, which is its exact opposite, and completes it

Of course, I am still making concessions in order to be useful but I am doing it without abandoning my own center and this is making a great difference. And because the underlying motivation has changed I am experiencing this in a totally new -and much more rewarding- way

I have moved from a place where I felt a victim (or a martyr) to a place where I feel empowered, and I am discovering that indeed, there is a great joy in giving...

DAY 160

circling around creativity


This is my photo-heart connection of this month. I love taking photographs, this is a belated love which constantly oscillates between my fondness for everyday themes and random photos from inside my home and my need to explore the outdoors world (in particular, nature) and even myself

This photo illustrates this swinging love: old books and shells coexist peacefully in my house and surround me, proving not only my tastes, but the way I like to live. It manages to portray my mood and feelings. And it has also an extra ingredient: it shows an incipient liking for still-lifes that involve a more studied composition

I´ve been done this for a some time now, but lately I have started to feel more confident while I am creating compositions that are more deliberate and consciously done,  where I arrange items, I look for certain light and mood and I play freely with symmetry, proportion, balance, harmony and so on...

My love for photography has allowed me to portray my life in a way that I wouldn´t have ever imagined. Photos are complementary to my writings and allow me to go through my feelings and thoughts, indeed they enhance each other. But this new phase in this process of development is allowing me to connect with a dimension of photography that I haven´t investigate in detail before which is much more related to artistic creation itself

I have the feeling that this close a sort of circle... because now I can not only depict the world as it is (or as I see it), but I am also aware of my capacity to recreate a new world of my own