DAY 365+87

overcoming strangeness

This is my Photo-Heart Connection of June. I had not to think very much because the only photos I have taken along the whole month have been a series of these cherries 

The day after I finished checking the paper of my students and once I uploaded their marks, I took my camera. Only a few weeks had passed without taking a single photo, even so, it was like a foreign object in my hand that I didn´t know how to handle. I felt sad and tempted to let it aside, but I had the feeling that this could create a breach, a rupture

I´ve being doing my inner work for nearly two years using mainly my photos which often trigger musings that drive me to become aware of things about my life and myself, but in the moment that I thought to postpone my practice one day more, I could see how fragile still is (will always be). And also, how the discipline that is needed to go inside once and again, can be broken by pain or tiredness... by those days when one feels that any other effort -even on which is aimed at giving us peace and joy- is too much

So, although I was a bit reluctant I decided to take some photos. I was at home and I was too tired to go outside but I remembered the cherries that were in the fridge and I gave them a try

I started without much interest, and, to be honest, with a not very good attitude. In fact, I simply placed a bowl on top of a chopping board but after the first attempts I started to feel how my mood was changing. I moved the fruits here and there, and play with the settings of the camera and after sixty photos or so of the same subject (yes! you´ve read well, did I mention that I am a bit perfectionist?) calm was restored. And I felt the old bliss

This is the back story of this photo which is about frustration and reconnection. However, it has been a good thing to check out all the photos I took that day, because I have realized that quite often photos tell a story that don´t fit what happened when they were taken. In fact, this photo talks to me about summer, the expectation of lazy day, the chance to rethink daily life and create healthier routines, the need to start to enjoy little pleasures again, it talks to me about plans and changes to come

About intentions and leaps of faith