17.9.12

DAY 329

I finally see with the eyes of my soul

E
xhausted. sad, worried, devastated... that´s the way I´ve been feeling the last couple of days

My mood was ruined, my nerves were in tatters and my life seemed to be falling apart. I was feeling paralyzed with fear and uncertainty... shocked

The attitudes and opinions of my siblings were not helping me, they were even more frightened than me due to the direction my mother´s life had taken. They had also succumbed to the temptation to dramatize and were carrying me out of my center

I was totally disconcerted and disturbed when I had a moment of sudden revelation and I saw this could be the perfect chance of making decisions and creating new dynamics. The perfect chance of exploring new possibilities... the perfect chance of rearranging old routines. The only thing I had to do was stop seeing what had happened as a drama and start to see it as an opportunity. So simple, so difficult!

This has helped me to realize that even when I use to say everything happens for a reason, often I forget to find out the meanings and messages behind the facts and get lost in an emotional bog. I truly believe that these circumstances are teaching me that I am able to overcome my old blockages and living according my new beliefs


PS: I am behind with my blog due to my life circumstances. I am transcribing my impressions of previous days in order to catch up with my posts

8 comments:

seabluelee said...

I'm sorry that you're going through such a difficult time. But I love your self-portrait! It really does capture all those emotions that your words expressed.

urban muser said...

sorry to hear you are having a rough time. this self-portrait is beautiful. thanks for taking the time to link up.

Urban Rustic said...

I agree with Urban Muser.I am so sorry to hear that you are having challenges in your life but your image is so perfect an expression of your feelings.Thank you for sharing.

momphotographer said...

I hope things get better for you soon! the selfie is beautiful and it reflects the negative emotions you're taking about! sometimes being creative helps me to get through rough time!

Heather said...

I am new to your blog.. just found you through Urban Muser's link up but your words tug at my heart. And that image. I feel as though I know you, as though we are living a similar story. Looking forward to reading more.

Cathy H. said...

Very powerful image!! Hopefully things will be better soon!

Sandra said...

Clever you! Finding your way out of your emotional bog... it seems easy once we remember we are not our emotions! Great picture of your inner journey!

Becs said...

Gorgeous self portrait and beautifully written post. Sorry you're having a hard time at the minute, I hope things improve for you soon.

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