|mending the fracture|
Past week was a restless week with lots of emotional ups and downs. However, I experimented little –and almost invisible- transformations that are having a deep impact on me
I started the week feeling disquieted and tense without apparent reason. Although I managed to discover some haven of peace along the days, as the week went by I started to find my unease and my resistance unpleasant and discouraging
I was wondering why I need to keep sentiments, roles, attitudes and behaviors that I don´t find meaningful anymore and I don´t even want to preserve, when I decided to stop once and for all
Suddenly I realized that deep inside I was not interested on keep up with that discussion; I don´t wanted to know the reason why I was doing this or that, I just wanted to let go all the complexity and move forward. I felt that, sure enough, I only wanted to be easy. As easy as I knew I was able to be if I only could liberate myself...
When I decided to stop my inner dialogue, my complains and my powerless mood, I realized that the only one who can give me permission to fly is me and as soon I understood that, I was fully aware of what I was doing: I was longing for being the person that I already am (!)
Yes, I am already courageous, wise, creative, playful, attentive, kind, mature, precious, grateful, truthful, serene…
I am blissfully improving myself in order to be even better, but I am not defective. I am already complete