16.7.12

DAY 266

mending the fracture

Past week was a restless week with lots of emotional ups and downs. However, I experimented little –and almost invisible- transformations that are having a deep impact on me

I started the week feeling disquieted and tense without apparent reason. Although I managed to discover some haven of peace along the days, as the week went by I started to find my unease and my resistance unpleasant and discouraging

I was wondering why I need to keep sentiments, roles, attitudes and behaviors that I don´t find meaningful anymore and I don´t even want to preserve, when I decided to stop once and for all

Suddenly I realized that deep inside I was not interested on keep up with that discussion; I don´t wanted to know the reason why I was doing this or that, I just wanted to let go all the complexity and move forward. I felt that, sure enough, I  only  wanted to be easy. As easy as I knew I was able to be if I only could liberate myself...

When I decided to stop my inner dialogue, my complains and my powerless mood, I realized that the only one who can give me permission to fly is me and as soon I understood that, I was fully aware of what I was doing: I was longing for being the person that I already am (!)

Yes, I am already courageous, wise, creative, playful, attentive, kind, mature, precious, grateful, truthful, serene…

I am blissfully improving myself in order to be even better, but I am not defective. I am already complete 

4 comments:

Introverted Art said...

your photo looks stunning. you are stunning and this post found me standing exactly where you are: at the decision to let go of the damaging inner dialogue, to to spreading your wings, to being this wonderful individual you are. Keep it coming, I feel so honored to be able to "share" this journey with you.

La Dolce Vita said...

The damaging inner dialogue can paralyze us...all that we are -beautiful, vibrant, creative,honest, soulful, emotional, funny...all that we are- gets buried under this negative inner dialogue and our "true self" gets hidden/lost. We become "somebody else" not us. So, let us be what we are and what we are capable of by challenging this negative inner dialogue with some positive, self affirmative ones.

I have been thorough this phase...I am facing this inertia from time to time...and only the awareness of "who I really am and what I should be" is rescuing me from this phase.

Mom of A and a said...

Sometimes its best to just let it go! You look so beautiful!

Deborah Tisch said...

Very powerful words, and they resonate with me. I find myself in that same place, shaking off the pretense and celebrating my true self. Thank you for sharing your journey.

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