When I first started this journey I used to have so many expectations. So many beliefs about all the things that I had to change, achieve, conquer or demonstrate
I used to have so many preconceived idea. So many beliefs about what would make me happy or proud of myself or pleased with my life.
I used to have so many prejudices. So many beliefs about what kind of experiences were worth living, what kind problems were worth thinking about, what kind of behaviors would increase my self-worth
I used to have so many opinions. So many beliefs about myself, about my own importance, my past, my future, my present, my life.
I used to have so many needs. Need to do the right thing, need to fit, need to be approved, need to be loved, need to be perfect, need to be forgiven, excused and also, compensated
I thought that my inner work would prove that I was right, would give me the power to success and to achieve self-satisfaction, the ability to make unquestionable decisions, would make me be more valuable… better than others, I thought that maybe it would redeem me but it has showed me that I was totally wrong.
It has showed me that my expectations, preconceived ideas, prejudices, opinions and needs were useless. Finally I am learning that life doesn´t have to be mended. Indeed, every moment is sacred.
Finally I am realizing that joy is an option, not a privilege. I am understanding the rationale of this existence which is a gift, a miracle, not something meant to be controlled, explained.
Finally I am admitting that I am (have ever been) a radiant being, that love and light are (have ever been) by my side. And I have come to the conclusion that I can trust this process, universe´s guidance and my own inner voice.
Finally I am grounded in acceptance.
Please note, I have updated my gratitude page this week, if you want to have a look follow this link