|the wise self|
Many things have moved along October inside and outside me. Some circumstances that have been at a standstill along the whole year (or more) seem to be guided into positive channels and are making me see some light at the end of the tunnel.
On the other hand, some old patterns that I´ve been dealing with, are little by little fading away and I feel that I have been set free. Of course, many things stay the same (some of them for my own good, not all) but even when I face those that I don´t like, I feel a sort of detachment. Anger has almost gone away and I have realized that I am fighting less and am more prone to embrace what comes to meet me.
All those things together are making me feel much more creative. But also much more balanced, motivated and proactive. And focused. And confident.
However from time to time I doubt. From time to time I think that maybe there is a hidden catch in this mood. From time to time a whispering voice inside me says:
Who do you think you are? Why do you think you deserve to feel this tranquility? Why do you think you´re good enough to dare to be different, to feel safe, to experience joy? Have you ever thought that maybe you´re neglecting what is really important? And for a moment I feel just a pretender.
That´s not new, you know. We all have that part of us which maybe trying to protect ourselves or warranting our survival and others approval, ruins our greatness and quite often all the fun. But now that speech only lasts a few seconds, because the wise self that also resides inside me doesn´t remain silent or muttering tremblingly. On the contrary, It shouts, and claims and vindicates and repeats a tiny mantra aimed at reminding me the kind of person I am (I want to be) now:
honor your uniqueness
PS: This is my October´s Photo-Heart Connection. I took a photo of the above mentioned phrase that I wrote down in my agenda (almost without noticing it) while I was updating it. I like the way this reminders catch me while I am leafing through it.