1.11.13

DAY 365+122

the wise self

Many things have moved along October inside and outside me. Some circumstances that have been at a standstill along the whole year (or more) seem to be guided into positive channels and are making me see some light at the end of the tunnel.

On the other hand, some old patterns that I´ve been dealing with,  are little by little fading away and I feel that I have been set free. Of course, many things stay the same (some of them for my own good, not all) but even when I face those that I don´t like, I feel a sort of detachment. Anger has almost gone away and I have realized that I am fighting less and am more prone to embrace what comes to meet me. 


All those things together are making me feel much more creative. But also much more balanced, motivated and proactive. And focused. And confident. 

However from time to time I doubt. From time to time I think that maybe there is a hidden catch in this mood. From time to time a whispering voice inside me says:

Who do you think you are? Why do you think you deserve to feel this tranquility? Why do you think you´re good enough to dare to be different, to feel safe, to experience joy? Have you ever thought that maybe you´re neglecting what is really important?
And for a moment I feel just a pretender. 


That´s not new, you know. We all have that part of us which maybe trying to protect ourselves or warranting our survival and others approval, ruins our greatness and quite often all the fun. But now that speech only lasts a few seconds, because the wise self that also resides inside me doesn´t remain silent or muttering tremblingly. On the contrary,  It shouts, and claims and vindicates and repeats a tiny mantra aimed at reminding me the kind of person I am (I want to be) now: 


honor your uniqueness


PS: This is my October´s Photo-Heart Connection. I took a photo of the above mentioned phrase that I wrote down in my agenda (almost without noticing it) while I was updating it. I like the way this reminders catch me while I am leafing through it.


14 comments:

Romero_77 said...

Buenas noches Zena, un verdadero placer poder volverte a leer nuevamente, un texto muy profundo y tranquilizador, como bien dices, esa voz que llevamos dentro, ¡¡no se intimida ante nadie ni ante nada!!.

Una foto encantadora, llena de fragilidad y de fuerza al mismo tiempo.

Un abrazo xoxox

Serena Lewis said...

Wonderful post and beautiful image! I need to honour my uniqueness more. Thanks for the reminder.

Nonnie said...

I wonder if these symptoms are like a virus because I'm working hard on trying to have a different prospective when dealing with negative moods.

Kathryn said...

What a beautiful inspiring post.

Optimistic Existentialist said...

Once again you make me think. A good lesson for us all - honoring our uniqueness.

Susan said...

First off, beautiful image-soft sweet beautiful light. It tells a story.
Congrats on the self-awareness that has come to you, that even when you are doubting you are aware you're doing it and can stop the cycle. Working on all that myself-and it ain't easy.

Michele at Sweet Leaf said...

I'm so glad your Wise Woman Self is the one who stays longer, and is the one you listen to now. And Yes, you DO deserve to feel joy and tranquility. ;-) ---Michele at Sweet Leaf, visiting from PHC

seabluelee said...

Your photo is lovely and meaningful, and what a wonderful mantra: honor your uniqueness. Thank you for the reminder.

Prairie Jill said...

A beautiful image and a beautiful post.

Kat Sloma said...

Oh, that voice. "Who do you think you are?" Yes, I know that voice. I think we all do. But you are growing and can move beyond that voice, what a beautiful thing. You deserve every good feeling you have! Thank you for sharing in the Photo-Heart Connection.

gina said...

Yes, we all have moments of self-doubt, which can weaken our will to really express ourselves. It's good that your "wise woman" is so strong. It took a long time for me to start listening to my own wise woman. A thoughtful and important photo-heart connection.

Kim Stevens said...

Fabulous post, and "honor your uniqueness," yes absolutely!

rakusribut said...

love the contrast and the connection here, the DoF, the two leaves touching, the soft colors..... very 'layered' image.

Aga Gasiniak said...

how good to read your words and look at such a peaceful image and how beautiful is even just to think about honoring our uniqueness. Much love to you, Zena.

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