DAY 365+93

back to basics 

This is my Photo-Heart Connection of this month. I had selected another photo but while I was editing some photos for an on-line class about how to make creative sketches that I am taking, I felt unexpectedly connected to some of them

I made the photos only to document my working process and I was reluctant to share them out of that context so I resisted to follow my heart but it ended up winning

As they say, heart defies logic. This is not the photo I expected to share, but here it is

You may ask where is the connection here, why my heart dances and applauds when look at it, what makes this better than still lifes, flowers, summer sceneries and the rest of captures of July

Well, that´s what I think:

Drawing was my first creative passion. My first memories of myself represent me as a girl who was always drawing

Till I had 18 or so, I drawed almost every day of my life, mainly using Indian ink. I thought I was meant to be an artist and I wanted to study art, but every time I attempted to take a specific class on this issue, I felt frustrated and missunderstood

When I started my university studies, I opted for the social field and not for the art field, many person advised me to make a pragmatic decision and I thought they were right

I´ve been without drawing properly since 1999 or so, but I´ve continued to develop my creative dimenssion trough making collages, restoring furniture, taking photos and any kind of crafts you can image

I don´t know if the academic perspective of art, my need to please others, my perfectionism and great expectations and the feel that I was not good enough created this situation, but by taking this class I have given myself permission to explore my ability without pressures and I am feeling the same bliss that I experienced as a kid. And my heart dances and applauds!.

The class involves several assignments which are interesting, very inspiring and liberating. This photo is partial capture of one of the first pages I have created. We have to play with paints or ink freely, creating casual patterns and then we could use it to draw or write

I selected this fragment because of the phrase I found there (which I didn´t even remember writing it): surrender yourself to your destiny