DAY 276

behind the camera

I´ve  been looking for my own reflection all month long. I am member of a flickr group  and this was the month´s challenge. Often I have not time or chances to take my self-portraits following the group guidelines, but this month -as the theme was not so difficult or this I thought- I was determined to do it

Of course, I didn´t want to focus on the easiest captures. I wanted to create something a bit different, so I´ve been paying attention to places that could reflect my image. I´ve been also playing at home with different mirrors. I had two things in mind, take a photo where the camera was not visible and create a beautiful composition

But all my attempts have been vain. I took a few photos but most of them were awful. I was decided to give up, when last Saturday I took a couples of pictures by chance when I discovered my reflection in a shop window. I was waiting for my husband who was coming to help me with the shopping bags and I was bored so I held the camera and started to play a bit

At the first moment I didn´t like them, either. According to my opinion, they didn´t comply my minimum quality standards: the background is an abandoned house, I am holding the camera and wearing my sunglasses, the scene is nothing special... indeed, this is the most ordinary reflection one can take

But as days went by, I started to feel attracted to them. They reflect the person that I am right now, the person whose soul I´ve been glimpsing while I was in search for the perfect location where capture the perfect reflection

 No matter if I was walking, investigating, carrying the camera, going from one place to another with my big bag and sneakers, or perfectly dressed up with folders, ready to work...  every time I have looked at my reflection, these days, I´ve had the feeling that I could perceive a distinctive, and new, energy surrounding myself, like if an antique patina was been removed from the image. Indeed, I see myself more steady and bold, more serene and adventurous but in a happy way

 So finally, I´ve decided to stay true to this stage of my life where the scenario is the real life...

nothing more, nothing less